there's only one

who hears your scream, when you don't even make a sound?
when all your tears inside, never hit the ground

who is there when nothing makes it go away?
when nothing changes, no matter what they say

who can hold your breaking heart?
the moment a million pieces tear it apart

who can touch the part, you will never show?
when you are alone and no one else will know

who will carry your burdens, when they are presssing in?
so you can lift your head to see the way again

who sees the wounds opened by fear and shame?
when healing takes too much time and too much pain

who is there when you are ready to be done?
just Him forever, there is only one

I'm employed!

Hello, real world! I decided it was time to get off my butt and go find a job. I have always had a bad attitude about job hunting because it can be so tedious. But the best advice i ever got was in my 9th grade Life Skills class. My teacher said that you should dress up when you go in to pick up an application and fill it out there in case they ask you for an interview right away. Her advice has never failed cuz i have always gotten the job the same day I filled out the application. This time i threw in a resume just to make sure, but it worked. I'm going to be a caregiver at an assisted living facility in Tualatin. They mostly have residents with dementia or alzhiemers and they are so dang cute. I don't think most people can appreciate the tender hearts of the elderly, but God carved out a little place in my heart for them. I really love working with them, even though its hard and sad at times, they teach you so much. I love the twinkle in their eyes when they smile or share a story with you. I'm looking forward to starting, but any new job takes some getting used to especially this one cuz i start at 6:30am. Now that I have entered the working world its early to bed. I'm going to start full time next semester so hopefully i will get used to it, but its still so early. Pray for me, God is real.

its almost snowing

Britt said that if i started a blog i had to make the commitment to write regularly. I'm trying to remember, but the end of semester rush is coming soon even for those of us with only 5 credits. Britt since you are the only one that reads this does it get boring if you keep reading about yourself? Well just in case, britt is insanely jealous of my special day gift. Its not really that ipod that is bothersome, but the fact I get a special day. We were trying to come up with ways to create special days for those children who arrived more naturally then those adopted folks. Someone suggested, I think it was britt, that it be the day the baby was concieved. Nicole added brightly the addition of where and how, but yikes we are talking about our parents. I don't know about you but that makes the mind wander places it shouldn't. And hopefully by now, we all know "how" it happened. I think my special day is mostly for my parents. To them it is like my birthday because it was the day they first saw me, held me and named me even though it was in the SeaTac airpot. Last year I was so crazy busy my parents called me but i didn't have time to call them back and my dad was sad. I felt bad. Its important to them and me too I guess.

Its freezing outside today and it started to rain, but I was examining closely for any hint of snow. I bet Mar it would snow and if it does she has to wear the most outrageous bright green PSU beanie. Its awesome, so I hope it snows soon. The brita came in handy again last night. A couple weeks ago we used it to wash the ice off miki's frozen car. This time it was for washing frozen, moldy, slimly dog poo off Mar's shoe. It was only like 2 weeks old..yuck! We couldn't wash it in a sink or shower so we had to do it outside. It took a stick, TP and the brita to get the job done. whoa! the things i do for my friends...

Final, God thought. Do you ever think about what it means that God is "Holy". I think we throw that word around way too much without really knowing what we are saying. I know that I will say that automatically without even thinking about is His real character. "Holy" thats a pretty powerful adjective because I can't think of anything in this world that people would even loosley say is holy. Occasionaly i think i get a sliver of what it might mean when I'm worshiping and I get overwhelmed, weak in the knees, teary eyed praising my God, but even that is probably not it. The angels in heaven must get it cause all they say is "Holy, Holy, Holy.." Hmm, Lord help me to believe and experience your Holiness.

Not to shabby

well, although the day after thanksgiving shopping turned out to be a minor success, today was a blessed day in my book. It has been a slippery slope of temptations. First i gave in and started this blog and now i'm a proud owner of an ipod nano. I was resisting my "need" to buy one, but you can only resist for so long. My parents combined my special day (dec 1 ,the day i arrived from korea to my parents) and x-mas to bring about this sweet gift. I love my parents they are awesome. I'm so thankful for them. Only one day left with the fam and then back to the books and friends. That also reminds me of the pressing need for employment. My near future includes school, finals, x-mas break and then a 2 week trip to hawaii. Somewhere in there I have to make some money so that I can enjoy x-mas break, hawaii and my bills.
I'm getting partially distracted by itunes and the tv. My dad keeps switching back between The Good, the Bad and The Ugly (classic clint eastwood) and the Titanic, which i haven't seen in about 7 years. I forgot that it is actually a pretty decent movie. I'm not sure what the other movie is about but my dad likes it. It seems strange to me, i guess i can't appreciate the clint eastwood one-liners.

hello, my name is...

Finally, I did it. Bitty said I could steal the words from a song, so thanks to Jars of Clay I have the coolest name ever. I want my life to be a love song for my savior :). Ok, now to the point of all this. I gave in to the blog world because I was finally convinced that it might be a fun and good way to vent all my random thoughts and ideas. There's no better place to blurt all the cool things I learn about Jesus and possibly fill in my faithful readers (lol) on my day to day life. I hope you all know what you are in for. I'm home tonight with the fam getting ready to have thanksgiving dinner take 2 (aka leftovers) and watch the UP Pilots play Notre Dame in the womens college soccer quarterfinals. I did venture out into the real world today for some shopping, but only walked away with a new shirt from Old Navy and the new Third Day cd. Tomorrow will be a fun filled day of taking 100's, yes hundreds of x-mas boxes out of the attic so my mom can decorate the house. More on that lata..dinners ready.

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