Its like looking for your glasses when they are on your head.

Or this one time I was looking for my cell phone, like in my pockets, on my desk, everywhere in my room and then after a solid minute I realized I was talking on it. Unreal! Who does that?? I felt like the doofus of the month, I probably was.

Valentines came and went. My roommate's boyfriend was really sweet and bought Fegles and I each a rose. It was so sweet. Its all decked out with baby's breath, a red bow and standing in a wine bottle. Its cute. It makes me feel special. I also got a little bouqet from my parents with a little travel pack of m&m's. But TODAY, was the best. At work I realized we had these little cute decorative thingy's that had candy hearts in them. You know, the candy hearts. All you have to do is start reading them and then handing them out to random people and its a ball. I can't believe I almost let valentines pass without eating and playing with them. It made my day at work. I found a "Marry Me" one, but I won't tell you who got that one. ;)

I feel lighter tonight too. Its as if I had an amazing conversation with a good friend last night where I just got to pour out my broken heart and then just leave it there. I'm a processer so most things have to go through my mind over and over again, but I get stuck if I cant just blurt it all out. I finally laid out the broken pieces, the first time I have really talked to someone about this test since God put it on my desk. It was such a relief, so humbling and the Holy Spirit is miraculous. If today I got a fresh start then I'm one for one. And instead of asking the Lord to take it away, I realized I was asking God for more. Its unreal how in Christ when we are nothing, we see how MUCH we are His. The most life changing daily prayers of this season have been, " Lord, make me less," and "Not my will but yours, Lord." Ask Him, I dare you.

Tonight I get to go to this weekly intercessory prayer meeting. I'm part of this group that prays for you, us and this campus. Its tight cuz we get down to business with the Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Its intense, I'm sure bystanders would think we are intoxicated. Its so funny, but its so true if you were to step back and put yourself in a random persons shoes. Not just this prayer meeting, but anytime the Holy Spririt is moving powerfully and people are worshipping, bowing, praying ,singing, crying, shouting etc. Its got to be strange to someone looking in. Well i gotta get ready. Tomorrow is greenroom, I'm so excited. Saturday might be a beach trip, who knows.

peace.