D.C. anyone?

Well tonight I officially committed to Washington D.C. Its so last minute its pretty unbelievable I can even go. Sounds like fun I guess, the National Prayer Center, the Oregon Senators, all the cool stuff to see in DC, people I don't know and 7 days of ??????, who knows what. If you ask God to open miraculous doors and then He does, you would think it would be easy to have a thankful attitude. My heart honestly is struggling about going on this trip because I feel like I would be fine if not better off without it. Right now, it isn't me at all. Seriously, but I guess that leaves room for only God. Its not that I don't want to take this amazing opportunity I just don't understand it all I guess. At the same time I can't go without expectating and anticipating God to reveal His glory since I have nothing to do with this situation. God, you better see something I don't, I'm at your mercy. I'm waiting for affirmation that I heard God right and then made a really big decision based on what i thought I heard. Talk about being completely defenseless and almost helpless. Resistance comes before a move of God. God are you moving?