Patient Bear

A new year equals a new motto, a new slogan, or something to remind me what life's really about. Well this year its kinda a punch in the gut, yep you feel it. It's to wait. I know, not exciting or is it?

As part of my Christian faith I believe that God has a will that he desires for all of us and I believe God often imparts or reveals it to those who ask him. How do you know its God's will? Well, first you have to know God. Ever said, "that is totally so and so...?" It's because you know them, you know who they are and sometimes why they do the things they do. Same with God, as you get to know Him, you start to get to know who He is, and why He does some of the things He does. All this to say, part of the journey of faith for me is being able to trust His will, when i don't like it, i don't understand it or i don't want it. This remains a struggle at all times.

The second thing about my faith is that I also believe in God's timing. I think that sometimes we get it right, but at the wrong time. For whatever reason, this is the harder of the two for me. I think its because that means sometimes while I might know, I still have to wait. Who wants to do that? We aren't taught or rewarded for waiting. Why do you think we have sayings like, "early bird, gets the worm," or "you snooze, you lose." We are a "get it done and get it done now before its too late", kind of society. This is both a positive and negative thing about us, but the overall message is that waiting is not rewarded.

This brings me to my korea trip. One of the many times we were "road trippin" in the mini van I asked my sister's friend what the korean belief about creation was. I gave the example that Christians generally cite Adam and Eve. She told me that there was a heavenly prince that wanted to rule earth and there were two animals that wanted to be turned into humans; a bear and a tiger. The Heavenly King set a test before the tiger and the bear, to see who would be turned into a human. Both animals were sent into the forest and they had to wait there, only eating the food the Heavenly King gave them. The one who could wait the longest in the forest, only eating the ration of the King's food, would win. The tiger was the first to go and flee the forest to eat. Therefore the bear becomes a woman and marries the prince. Their child becomes the first king of Korea. Ok, whats the moral of the story? To the koreans the hero is the patient bear because in the end he is the one rewarded.

This struck me as quite unique and as i think about it more, it makes my 2010 a little more exciting. What if our society valued waiting? Like "wait as long as possible to get married because it will be a great reward." (this is not a belief koreans hold to. believe me, everyone knew someone they could set me up with because, yes i'm still single.) However, I think that waiting is something that not just the Koreans value, but God values.

Finally, to bring all these tangents together. The korean view of waiting is more comforting to me when i feel the pressure of my own society to get certain things done and get them done now. I inherently think waiting is hard and waiting too long is just wrong, because i'll miss something if i wait. However, God has been helping me to see that this isn't always the case and that what you do while you wait may be more important than how long you wait. So yes, someone who dreams so many things for myself and others is having a hard time with 2010's motto, but i will wait; and while i wait I will worship. I will worship a God who doesn't allow short cuts when its a matter of becoming who we are supposed to be. I will worship a God who knows all the desires of our hearts and whose timing is not our timing. And hopefully, I will worship when i'm tired of waiting and i want to be the tiger not the bear.

"Trust in Him at all times..." Psalm 62:8