i take my time

After getting back from Korea on sunday morning and by monday, learning i have a paper due thursday, it's easy to put the world on hold. But maybe that's okay and i can take my time catching up, doing a little each day. I just put my korea pics on my computer last night. I haven't blogged or emailed or showed up where there are lots of people to ask lots of questions. I'm still taking in not only korea, but the beginning of the year, the end of a season, the last year of seminary, hello's, goodbyes, gains and losses. To give the run of the mill answer, to blurt out the facts just doesn't seem like it does justice to what is bubbling inside my heart. I have changed. My life has too and i'm just not wanting to rush past all that its supposed to be. I'm searching for dreams and hopes for the future, for reconciliation with the past and gratitude and joy for the present. Life is such a gift and God's at the center, not me. I'm wondering "can I?", when i should be asking "can He?". I'm worried about "how will i?" when i should be excited about "how will He?". For all the goodness and richness that has found me, i owe it to Jesus. I need to give Him my life. I need to give Him my time.